Granted, we do manage to get some ‘work’ done most days, but generally I’ve been putting it off more and more. We read a lot of books, I’ll give her some workbook assignments, but she does NOT want to follow my instruction with regards to just about anything.
i’ve been looking through old photos-they help me reconnect.
I love Naomi with all my heart–obviously. I’m sharing here what is difficult to admit–that we struggle. Our days are not filled with moving from one task to the next in a way that is calm and beautiful. Often the activities I look most forward to are the ones the break my heart a little, the ones I think she’ll be eager to accomplish and I’m surprised to get convulsions. A leg kick, a body twitch–the movements of someone who may be better suited to straight jackets than homeschool. She knows these movements drive me out of my mind, and on some occasions I come with an open heart and preparedness to use calm tones and gentle reason to snap her out of it–not on all occasions. Sometimes, and maybe it’s the short-temperedness of pregnancy (golly, I hope this is part of it), but sometimes I don’t deal well at all.
So, I’ve been reading around on the ‘6 year change’ and so far I am hugely relieved. I mean, the girl has only 1 front tooth landing her right in the middle of some really big physical and emotional changes. I could cry just thinking about how little I feel I know about her right now, how I don’t know what to expect or even how to recognize her old self underneath it all. There are moments she gleams through with the glorious person I know she’ll get to, but these past few months have been such a challenge.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that I’m so thankful for having found the Waldorf community. Although we’re not the strictest waldorfians, not understanding this change would probably give me a great reason to give up on our homeschooling dream right now. Not having resources like groups, other bloggers with similar struggles, and books brimming with insight I might just throw in the towel right about now.
Still a few days in the giveaway!